I feel like a chapter in my life is coming to a close. It's the whole get huge, no sleep, and have babies chapter. I've wrestled a lot with the option of having a third baby, but have decided that I think I'm ready to move on. I think. I like the thought of being able to travel and do more with two kids (more money), the scales are balanced with parents vs. kids, I love feeling great again and like my own person. I desperately want to get back into school and finish that up. I think I did things a little backwards, with kids first and school after. But I always thought that my brain would stay healthier longer than my eggs would-hopefully! School in San Diego is so much cheaper than going to school here, so I'd like to start a nursing program in the fall of 2014.
But there's honestly a little bit of a nagging feeling that maybe I'm not done. Is that a good enough reason to have a third? There probably isn't a good reason for having a third. I found this website called havingthreekids.com that I think is hilarious and very well written and exactly where I'm at right now.
Michael and I feel like it's now or never, sink or swim, and I just don't know what to do. Of course he says whatever I want is fine with him, but he would be fine with having two. Great- so now our family's whole future rests on me. Not a good idea.
Not an easy choice...give it a little more time, when she's sleeping through the night and things are more predictable. U have time to decide trust me don't rush!
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DeleteOk Kristen.....We are so at the exact same place in life. I am 99.9% sure that I am done having kids...Jason is soooooo done! But there is this one little piece of me that thinks I want 1 more. The logical side of me says 2 is the perfect amount (for all the reasons you listed)! I think I am just hopeful that if I tried again I would have a girl and that could be super fun....drama filled:), but fun!! Anyway, hard decision, lots of prayer needed. You guys will figure it out:)
ReplyDeleteSam- I think you should go for it ;). It is a hard decision!! My one big comfort in wanting to have three is knowing that I wouldn't regret it- but I might regret not having three. Michael said the other night that having one kid was a small family, two was average, three was robust, and four was large. :)
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